It's been nearly two years since I have been on here. Due to another youtuber, I wound up here and realized how long it had been. I'm not quite sure even what to write. But I figure, why not? I'm here. So leave a little piece of what's going on since this blog still exists.
Today is the first day of the new year. This is a year in which I have been waiting for for a long time. Some of life's biggest questions are going to be answered this year.
But I only have two followers. One that lives far away that has become a good friend over time, the other that was once a good friend but is now far away both in friendship and in distance. Is it irony that happened? Who knows. But if either of you read this, you both were a very big part in shaping 2012 for me.
One, has jumped on a journey with me bringing us both closer to God. 2012 was a time for spiritual growth and understanding. It's as if He purposefully brought us together so that we could lean on each other for all those difficult times. And now we are finally where we need to be. Going in the right direction. Glorifying Him along the way. Perhaps it was all part of God's plan to show us that we are both stronger than we thought we are, but I sure am glad He brought me such a friend along the way.
The other, stepped off the journey many months ago. Was I sad? Yes. When friendships dissolve that once meant so much, it's difficult to swallow. I spent so long upset because I didn't understand what I did wrong. I still don't quite understand what I did to end such an epic friendship. But it's not for me to control. I finally had to let go of the fact that I didn't get it, and respect what was had. I tend to be quite an emotional person. Sentimental things usually get me. But, I must continue about my life, realizing that people come and people go. There are good times and there are bad times. You have to remember the good and forget the bad. Focus on the fact that so many fun times were had and not hold on to any negative feelings.
I am glad to have the new year. A fresh start. Now a count down till March. Even that, isn't going to be a bowl of cherries, but I know it's worth the wait and worth any struggles that come along. Here's to you 2013! For a better year and brighter future.
Aww, love what you wrote! And I'm so glad to have you along the way during my journey! I am not sure what I would have done without you added to my life. You've really helped me, listened to me, dealt with my hour long memos... hehe.
ReplyDeleteGod knows what He's doing and you're definitely one of my best friends, always reminding me what I once reminded you.. "God's got this."
And He really does!
This year is going to be exciting because you and I know very well how much we've been through, what we made it through, how much has changed, and how much we need this uphill season!
I welcome any new trials, knowing I've built all this strength with God and that with Him, anything is possible. He's really built us up! I can't imagine ever feeling the way I've felt before, and I'm glad to have finished that battle.
But when new ones come, I know God will help me. And I know that I'll always have you, no matter how far you physically are.
2013 is our year, so I really hope we can meet!