Warm Embrace

Dreams.  They can bring sorrow to your heart or brighten your soul leaving you floating on air.

The other night you held me.  I was finally in those arms again.  Your embrace warm and gentle.  A hug that felt as though neither of us would ever let go.  The color was so vivid I swore it was real. 

I live for that day.  It brings me joy and I think about it all the time.  It's getting closer and closer.  Soon we will embrace each other and what I've been longing for and missing for so long will be right there in front of me.  You, my love, are the only one that holds my heart, even though you broke it.  So many people don't understand why, but you are the only one that can piece it back together.  And I believe in you more than anyone that you will shine.

Thoughts on the Future

So, the past few weeks have been filled with frustrations of being thrown around like a fish out of water  that no one knows what to do with at work.  But, finally, after many talks I feel I've come to a schedule that will work for me, even though it takes a lot of my time.

But I've been thinking about this and realized what I'd like to do over the next few years. 

With the way it's working now,  I'm making a good amount to save.  Therefore, I will continue on that journey and not do many exhilarating things, but make a nest egg.  Then, when it comes time for me to step out of the middle ground of kid and adult and actually become a full adult and get married,  I think it's a nice idea to take a sabbatical and leave my current job and have an exhilarating 6 months.    Why should you start your life out with someone taking one week to go on an extravagant vacation only to come back straight way to the ho hum drill of what you've been doing before you stepped onto your journey through life with them?

I look at it this way.  I've got many things I want to see and places I want to go.  But I also am a hopeless romantic who thinks of how I want things to be between my future husband and I and the bond we will share.  Therefore, why not morph the two together?  Start an epic journey on the nest egg I make now.  Because if all you do is work your life away and hoard your money, what kind of life is that?  I want to enjoy things.

Hugs

Time. Waiting. Patience.

Time can feel like its flying at one minute and frozen the next.  May feels like it is an eternity away.  I stand here awaiting that first hug.  That first beautiful hug that I don't think I'll ever let go of.  I can't wait to have your arms wrapped around me and your face right next to mine.  Finally be able to smell you and look into your eyes.  The eagerness drives me.  Yet at the same time the waiting feels like it's going to be forever!

Until then, I shall wait.  And my arms will belong to no one else until they can be wrapped around you.