So, earlier today my blog competitor/best friend ever inform me that I am a "sack of mush". Her words, not mine.
I think she got it quite right though. When I'm happy and feel love, I'm really super happy and loving. When I feel depressed cause my love isn't there, then it's extreme. Which everyone has things like this to make them who they are, but I must say mine are quite extreme. I like to pour on the cheese in relationships, it's my favorite.
But right now I sit in a place where I feel so much of that mush. Obviously, from my last blog, it was something huge that happened. I think the thing that proves most her "sack of mush" theory is the fact that who the last blog is about, broke me so, yet right now, talking to him and seeing him on my screen makes me happier than I've felt in a long time and I feel an over flow of mush.
Some people want to say I'm wrong though. Which obviously, this is my path, no one else's. But when it comes to God and his "love story" for us all, I feel that he also gives us common sense and a sense of forgiveness. Of course people who have not ever actually truly been in love will never understand how strong a feeling it is. But just as I let go of my love, God put him right back into my life. Some people say coincidence some say it's wrong. I say God is love and love is forgiveness and even if this doesn't take me to my soulmate I don't care what other people are trying to tell me because that love and forgiveness I have are strong. God finally helped me understand that the things that have occurred in my life were there for a reason. To teach me many things. He has a plan for all of us, and had he allowed that relationship to go on and never break, I wouldn't be as strong as I am right now. I wouldn't know how much love I can have for another human being. And I certainly wouldn't understand forgiveness.
Where would we be if we didn't accept what our hearts told us and didn't forgive people because of their downfalls? What if God has us in that person's life for a reason, to help bring them closer to Him. I can not sit back and listen to my peers when it comes to this matter. It's not going to be discussed with them anymore and I'm going to follow my heart and listen to God. Not all of His love stories for us are peaches and creme all the time. Things happen and we don't understand them at first, but He has purpose. I feel that this path now is going to be quite interesting however it may go. Lord, lead me in the right direction.
"He has a plan for all of us, and had he allowed that relationship to go on and never break, I wouldn't be as strong as I am right now. I wouldn't know how much love I can have for another human being. And I certainly wouldn't understand forgiveness."
ReplyDeleteAll I can say to that is AMEN. It is extremely true! I see trials and heartache as a way to make us stronger. God does allow hurtful things to happen, but He ALWAYS has a way out, and there always is a purpose behind it all. Things can seem to "go wrong" while we follow Him, but He knows what He's doing and He turns the bad into good.
I always blame the devil on the bad stuff. He's the one that wants us to give up on people, feeding lies to us to tell us someone is not worth it. The love you have for the spoken person is clearly the love God put in you to have and keep. To forgive with, to understand, and to keep on loving no matter what. If all you can do is love, whether the person loves the same in return or turns around and walks away, love will not come back as void. It will always, somehow...make a difference. :) And you'll definitely be rewarded in the end.
I learned what it truly means to love someone and forgive too. It is indeed the most amazing lesson, no matter how hard it was and/or is.
I know God has great plans for you! And said person. :D
=] Oh I love your comment.
ReplyDeleteAnd the interesting thing is, how you were talking about the love God puts in us, I went to church today and that was the sermon! Oh it was the best one I'd heard in a while because it spoke to me so much! It's like He just keeps giving me all these signs that I'm doing the right thing. It's really great. =]
Aw. I love when sermons are just on perfect timing! Just shows me how real God is and how His timing really is perfect and that He truly did show up. :D
ReplyDeleteI'm glad you liked my comment!
And yes, I agree! When God gives clear signs that line up with what I'm doing, praying for, and believing, I feel so assured and warm inside. :)
((Why did it make my name Stephany?? That's so weird and not right!!!))
ReplyDeleteOh!! I logged into a different youtube for my tutorial one with Brittany and we made our names mushed together and it logged me into blogger with it...even though we don't have a blog or anything. haha! that's funny.
As you know this is Stephanie, just not logged into my account! okay... anyway! sorry. ^^